Its all about the climb!

I am afraid of alot of things.

Dogs, spiders, snakes..actually lets just say ALL animals except goldfish, dentists, roller coasters, swimming too far out in the ocean, blue bottles, oh really I could go on but it will sound like I should be living in a bubble so lets end with HEIGHTS.

I am scared of heights.

Scared as in, ‘I get angry at Julia Roberts for fooling around with her “look no hands” antics on the balcony in Pretty Woman and can’t look down when on the escalators in Westfields’ scared!

So you get the picture, YES?

So when Coke Dude said there was 1 spot on the bridge climb available, I was thinking “Woo hoo, go Amanda and you didn’t even have to chuck a tanty to go along!” and “phew, thank god that is a choice taken out of my hands”…massage back at the hotel here Brenda and I come!

And then he said it….coke dude said those 4 little words that made me face my fear in a split second “We have another spot!”

Knowing that I had a fear of heights and had publicly declared right here on this blog that I was thankful we were not participating in THAT part of the day, Coke Dude immediately went to offer the spot to Brenda who looked him in a way that said “No way dude, I am a tired Mama and I’m getting me some relaxation!” Brenda’s baby is not sleeping at the moment and Brenda is soooo tired which I am sure many of you can relate to….so she definitely needed some R&R whilst me, I was faced with deciding between…

1 hour of bliss at a 5 star hotel

or

Stare fear in the face and do the climb of my life

There is something you need to know.

You can call me any name you like, you can try give me a pep talk, tell me I’ll regret it, yadda yadda yadda…it won’t work.

I am quite happy to hold the bags whilst you go scream your lungs out on a ride.

I don’t like the feeling of adrenalin pumping around my body and I am quite happy for you to tell me and the world, I am a wussbag if it means I don’t have to face the fear.

But on Friday, something had changed.

I looked at these 2 awesome guys who had travelled to nearly every country in the world meeting all kinds of people and here I was, being offered the chance to share this climb with them.

I looked at Amanda who has jumped out of a plane, climbed the bridge before and been through hell with post natal depression and thought to myself  ’3 months ago, I didn’t know this woman from a bar of soap, since then I have laughed with her, cried with her, shared my first overseas trip with her…heck, I might as well climb the bloody top of the harbour bridge with her!’

And before I could say “thanks Coke Dude but you’re right, I won’t do it”….

I was saying “OK, I’ll do it”.

 I was scared out of my freakin mind but kept telling myself  to FEEL the fear and do it anyway, all the while wondering if they have sick bags on top of the bridge and if they didn’t, would my vomit hit a car and how bad that would be {its gross I know but just telling it like it was}!

So it is true what they say, FEAR is nothing but:

False

Evidence

Appearing

Real

It turns out I had nothing to be scared of and everything to look forward to….

The staff at Bridgeclimbwere amazing, they are soooo thorough, informative and very nurturing when you tell them you are scared out of your pants…they even clap when you reach the top and say “Look, no hands!”

Look no hands!

The top was everything you can imagine and YES the view was amazing…

I did it..how bout that view?

but you know what?

So was the journey to the top and back to the bottom…I am so glad I took the time to appreciate that too, I don’t want to live my life always concentrating on the TOP, THE MOMENT, THE DESTINATION.

Life is  just as much about how you get there, the journey…. THE CLIMB!

PS Do you have a fear you think you could never conquer? or Have you faced one?

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